As a busy family doctor with (then) four very young children the two most important things to me were education and health care. I was prepared to tighten my belt for higher taxation but felt secure that better schools and hospitals would emerge.
So I voted for Tony Blair.
Tony was caring. Tony had compassion. And he would be backed up by dour financial prudence from Gordon. The first change in health care was the abolition of GP fundholding, the system introduced by Thatcher in which the money followed the patient. This had dramatically improved the care I could get for my patients. Hospitals had to listen or we took our business elsewhere. Not only did fundholding go, but also the GPs right to refer patients to the hospital of their choice. For the first time since 1948 we could only use local hospitals.
And I voted for Tony Blair.
The standard of state education deteriorated. There was a growth of "teaching assistants" in the classroom - housewives "with an interest". We decided to educate our children privately. It has not been easy. But once you put your children into the private sector, it is hard to pull them out for the local comprehensive. And then I found that Tony Blair was not using comprehensives for his children either.
And I voted for Tony Blair.
It became clear that Labour did not trust professionals, in either health care or teaching, to do their own jobs without central supervision. Enter the bean counters. The box tickers. And then, the management consultants. Lack of professional autonomy. Targets. (http://nhsblogdoc.blogspot.com/2006/01/two-week-rule.html) Tony and Patricia wanted every patient in the NHS to have their operation within six months. And they have sort of achieved that. You will have your hernia and varicose veins done in six months. But that has blocked the beds. You will also get your cancer operation in six months, but you need that immediately. Tony Blair had his cardiac surgery on the NHS immediately. I have had patients waiting for nearly a year for that very same surgery. But the government says all was well. (http://nhsblogdoc.blogspot.com/2006/02/but-how-long-is-queue.html)
And I voted for Tony Blair.
I am disillusioned. As someone who voted, perhaps uncharacteristically, for Labour in 1997 I feel I cannot do it again. I bought an image. I voted for a smile. I put a man with a smile and a clean blackboard it to office. Worst of all, the man with the clean blackboard has taken me to war on the basis of a lie.
Labour needs me. That sounds arrogant. I do not mean it to be. There are a lot of middle of the road "mes". At the moment, though, I am attracted to David Cameron. He is young. He is enthusiastic. He seems compassionate. Trouble is, this reminds me very much of the feeling I had in 1997. I am not going to get caught again. A sleigh-ride in the snow makes good TV but, once again, the blackboard is still clean.
Where to go next?

